Courage, Fear, Struggle, Growth

I haven’t written or posted anything on my blog for about 7 months, with the exception of the previous post, now probably for a number of reasons. Why? Lazy, too busy,  nothing valuable to say, etc. For the most part I just haven’t felt like I had anything useful to say, because well…my goal in life is not to say or do anything unless it in some way benefits others.  Whether my words inspire, cause self-reflection or most often spark laughter; I need them to add to value to life.   Do my thoughts always reflect that? I don’t think they always do since most often they are simply random thoughts, however, I’ve been told otherwise.

A few weeks ago I viewed a talk by Afrobella that has inspired me to get back to blogging.  It’s given me the courage to write and not worry about what responses I may or may not get.  I’m just writing, putting it out in the universe and allowing it to reach whoever it needs to reach. I have to start somewhere and if I do nothing I get nothing in return other than wondering what might have been.  As I watched the talk given by Afrobella a number of things stood out for me but my ears perked up around 8:53 and I replayed the words below over and over to fully digest them.

“Courage comes from fear and struggle leads to growth.  Without those experiences I wouldn’t be able to identify with all of the women around the world who have been able to identify with me. I wouldn’t have recognized that we were looking for a wider reflection of ourselves. And I wouldn’t have trusted my gut instinct and that was the real thing.  Courage is looking inside yourself and recognizing I have things to say. I have a valid opinion and I can’t be the only one.”   

“Creating your own runway, creating your own platform.”

 “Live life with intent”  

The entire talk is very inspiring and I think anyone looking for the courage to overcome their fears, big or small,  should definitely watch Afrobella's talk and be inspired.

 

So I must get back to the place of fearlessness I knew a few years ago.  This blog kind of holds me accountable, perhaps that’s another reason why I’ve been absent because not writing allows me to be unaccountable and live in my own little isolated world.  However, that’s not how God wants me to live nor can He use me in anyway if I continue to linger in my comfort zone. I’m going to attempt to #writelikecrazy and have at least 1 post a week and when I get writers block I’ll share the words of others that have inspired or spoken to my heart.

Beasts of the Southern Wild, Third Time is a Charm

I heard about Beasts of the Southern Wild prior to all of the Oscar buzz and I’ve since watched it 3 times. The first time I had a range of emotions and was not quite sure what to think or what I was supposed to take from the movie.

I watched it a second time because I felt like I was supposed to get more from this movie.  I’d also read a LOT about it after the first time I saw it because I really wanted to understand all the buzz that surrounded the movie. It’s generally a good indication when I do extensive research after watching any movie that it's going to end up being one of my favorites.  And I found out Miss Bathsheeba was one of the New Orleans residents featured in When the Levees Broke back in 2006 and I wanted to revisit her character as well.

Finally, I watched Beasts of the Southern Wild again because I ABSOLUTELY love Quvenzhané Wallis and after watching multiple interviews and the behind the scenes production of the movie I am even more impressed with her as a young actress.  Despite all this sudden fame, in all her interviews she is simply a little girl that “likes to pick flowers” and carry animal purses to awards shows.

 


There is one particular scene that will forever have me baffled as to where a 5 year old girl reaches within  herself to draw up enough emotion to produce such an emotional on screen moment.   

It’s the same emotion Denzel Washington created in “Glory” scene when he gets whipped.  But he was a grown man with life experiences….Quvenzhané was 5 years old expressing a similar emotion.

But seeing Quvenzhane get into character I realize she is a force to be reckoned with and truly has a gift.

 

Anyway, the second time I watched it I was not preoccupied with anything else and realized I’d missed so much the first time I watched Beasts of the Southern Wild. There were moments in the beginning that connected to the end and I better understood why they were necessary for the movie.  Beasts of the Southern Wild is definitely one of those movies you watch more than once and each time you see something new.  I’ll certainly say the first time it was processing and attempting to see beyond all the despair to realize, in my opinion, that at the core this was a movie about love and community.  So the second time I was somewhat oblivious (there are parts that I can’t watch simply because it pains me to see a child go without basic needs) to the way the residents of the Bathtub lived, but focused more on the dialogue and all of the metaphors of life displayed in this film. 

Many of the metaphors were a bit abstract and compared to most, the way Wink and Hushpuppy displayed love was a bit untraditional, but it was their way of experiencing and showing love. I’d read where some people were disturbed by the relationship between Wink and Hushpuppy, initially I had the same feeling.  However, after watching a 3^rd time, I realized that parts of my past allowed me to relate to the type of love Wink and Hushpuppy shared.  As a young girl I probably spent as much time practicing my piano and playing with Barbie dolls as I did sitting in my Daddy or granddaddy’s old Chevy trucks for hours at a time at a stinking hog lot.  Not the place for a little girl but I loved being there just like Hushpuppy loved being anywhere her father was, so I can relate to Hushpuppy in being a little girl in untraditional surroundings.  Underneath it all, that was their way of showing love. 

The third time I was simply amazed by Quvenzhané as a young actress.  I mean really who can resist this cute face?

I had no idea this movie would effect me the way it did, I ended up experiencing this movie as a child that lost a parent and in those final moments and throughout this “life after” regularly sees everything my mother prepared me for in her absence.  Granted it wasn’t presented to me the way it was to Hushpuppy, but the lesson was the same none the less.  I won’t be here forever, so here are the tools you might need for survival.

A pivotal line in this movie and perhaps what made me realize I needed to watch this film again to understand it fully was, 

I don’t typically cry at movies, but when Hushpuppy spoke these words….. Christie wept.  Not because it was a sad scene but because I could relate and God spoke something similar to me shortly after my mama died and it’s helped me understand why so many around me had died unexpectedly over the last several years.  I won't say it's a  motivational quote, but it certainly reminds me that in a time where people are quickly leaving this earth that;  we won’t be here forever, make the most of your time with each person, live intentionally and don’t run from difficult times.  It happens to everyone, but the strong survive.

So of course I bought the DVD and it is filed next to another movie with a young heroine/character I identify with, Troy Carmichael.

I think everyone should see this movie, however, there is no in between; either you’ll love it or hate it wholeheartedly.  If it helps, Beasts of the Southern Wild reminds me of any great Toni Morrison novel.  And if nothing else It's a great discussion movie to see how others think and are effected by this thing called life.